NOVEMBER 2ND
All Souls’ Day: day of my birth.
Alone, I come to the asylum-hotel.
Belonging to all time here, I stand in the foyer,
and glimpse from the edge of my vision
the admission of a young man –
his chaos controlled by tranquillising giants,
and behind dark glasses.
Climbing a number of flights of
hastily narrowing, spiralling stairs,
I arrive at where a white-clothed proprietress
pauses – matronly in her smile:
in her denial of dislocation – of the door
locked and bolted; the opaque window.
A nurse lingers – out of her view.
Descending the back stairs,
I find myself in a tunnel, barely lit –
its walls and ceiling unplastered, revealing
the unique fragrance of psychosis….
Along this forbidden corridor, shrivelled creatures
mutter and shuffle. I cannot communicate:
I observe.
Before my throat tightens – even before I have
spoken your name – you are coming towards me,
sister of my soul: your fairness seems an illumination….
One by one, all subterranean guests are
moved by your stillness: you unlock them; unbolt their doors.
Male and female, they follow us patiently –
climbing that straight, wide staircase
to the nucleus of the house: a landing facing east
where an arched, stained glass window admits
a whole birthday of light through its red, gold and blue –
engendering presents of energy, clarity, communication….
You have asked for the woman in white to join us:
we form an expectant crescent. From clearest sky,
sunlight taps, taps the brightly stained.
Copyright © JENNY JOHNSON